I am a serial incompletionist. It's taken me a lot of therapy to realize this lol.
I think something I've learned a lot about myself lately is how I react to discomfort, realizing I'm very sensitive to it. An unfortunate byproduct of being sensitive to discomfort is doing nothing, because everything has some degree of discomfort.
Things as small as going to the movies, answering phone calls, and coming back full circle to my first sentence: finishing things. Not finishing projects might be under the umbrella of common. But I have also realized how little I finish in terms of books, tv shows, and especially video games.
I've been thinking a lot about this year laid out ahead of me (Year of the Horse woo) and how I want to really change during it. 2024, I went through a very serious trauma at the end of it. 2025, I was healing from it in more ways than one, and now that the waters have settled somewhat, I think on 2026. For me, I think I want 2026 to be my year of discomfort and my year of finishing things I've started (aka also discomfort).
There are some bigger goals I want, like to seriously jump into some crazy hobbies and travel more, but on a smaller scale, I want to finish things.
Anyways, the other day I made a list of games I've started and not finished (but want to!) and I've been pontificating over how to tackle it. I thought it would be nice to write them here as I've been kind of using my blog as a bit of a journal, and I'm really hoping to come back at the end of the year and see where I was and track my progress.
Here is my list in no particular order:
- Detroit Become Human
- Expedition 33
- Loddlenaut kind of
- Resident Evil 2
- It Takes Two
- Cyberpunk
- Little Kitty Big City
- Baldur's Gate 3
- Cat Cafe Manager
- Monster Hunter Stories Wings of Ruin 2
- Hades
- Red Dead Redemption 2
- Disco Elysium
- The Coma 2 Vicious Sisters
- Carrion
- Sunset Overdrive
- The Witcher 3
- Okami
- Paper Mario and the Thousand Year Door
- Ori and the Blind Forest
- Devil May Cry 5
- Night in the Woods
- Yoshi's Island DS
I had all of this written on a tiny little list and writing it all out and seeing it take the full screen is a bit daunting.
Maybe I'll add all of them to a randomized wheel and spin it to pick which one to start on. Or maybe I'll just do a kind of... last in, first out method? Tackle the ones I started the most recently first.
CURRENT RAT EVENTS
Not a huge fan of Daylight Savings. Windows fucked me on a failed update and I ended up having to reinstall. I'm still picking up the pieces of my PC. It ate half of today. The drain is clogged too (or something, not sure what), the disposal won't run. The dishwasher is connected to the disposal drain, so running it means this nasty un-disposed food water comes out of the drain, meaning the dishwasher is sitting full and has been since it broke. What does all of this mean? The kitchen stinks like old food. It's a horrible smell. I was unable to do my meal prep today like I normally do. This weekend was supposed to be relaxing and then all this happened. I have a work deadline due this week. I'm stressed.
Temperance (reversed)--Imbalance, burning out, excess.
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